Share more with ma.

Counting all my others, this is my third or forth blog. I never really stopped writing a blog but i just changed urls a lot. But this blog, i would love to share with everyone. I want this blog to be something i'm proud of where i can share with everyone.

This is a big deal because ever since i could remember, i was always scared of sharing my 'life' with my mum. It was like there was always this invisible wall kids would build against their parents from actually knowing them.

When i was younger, i was positive my parents didn't know who i really was. But that was purely because i blocked them from having any relation with my "school" life or "social media life". I made sure that they were far from knowing what my life was really like.

That was my mistake.

Now, my ma knows where i love eating in Kuantan. What i do after classes. Who i spend my time with. To be honest, sometimes i'm just updating her on my instagram stories. By destroying that wall, i gained so much from my mum. She shares so much now with me.

I'm not sure if the fact that i grew out of that puberty phase or that i learnt to be okay with what they say about me, I like making sure my mum knows how i'm doing. What i think about. Whats happening in my life. I like updating her. In my own ways. She's the first person i would want to share anything to nowadays.

With that being said, i'll try to make this blog something i'm comfortable with sharing with everyone.

so, um, mama if you're reading this, um welcome to my first blog! hehe.